Not Ready and a Little embarassed!

My totally awesome teammates are Goddesses! They have both signed up for their 2nd 1/2 ironman. And though I trained so well that I wasn't even that sore (ran on Monday and lifted today) I mentally am not ready for another 1/2. The training consumed me. I fought with my husband for time, got frustrated with my kids when I was exhausted from the long training hours and just never felt relaxed thinking about the race. And the truth is...it was the unknown. And I now Know what it will be like which is why it "should" make it easier. And I am already in shape fr the race all I have to do is maintain. And since I know the training worked it would be easier. So why????? I am a wimp. hence the embarassment. I don't want to take the time and energy. I love my kids and I want to be a training mommy, but an unstressed training mommy. So the international will be a good compermise for me. I need to train and do long rides and runs, just not as long as if training for a 1/2. There may be another 1/2 in my future as long as my teammates will do another. We all leave VA next summer and I hope we will make it a tradition to do 1 long race together every year or every other year. I think they were right about our bond. We have shared something so intense and made it. I will never forget them or the day. By the way, I would like to add that we all would never have done as well with out Adrienne's encouragement, motivation and help. She was amazing. I can't speak for the other 2 but coming out of the water after the longest swim I ever done in my life, I saw her. And she yelled at me to run and catch up and without her I don't think I would have made it to the transition. I couldn't believe I finished the swim. She reminded me I had more to go and kept me moving. And coming off the bike her smiling face and words of encouragement helped me put "one foot in front of the other". She Rocks! I will never be able to explain or tell how much it meant to me to have her there. So Thank you Adrienne! And thank you teammates for being the most amazing women I have ever had the honor to be friends with. I love you guys and look forward to Williamsburg. Are we talking about tenessee, yet?