Lame - but redeeming myself

So, I was lame and registered for the olympic distance Williamsburg Tri while both my teammates registered for the half. I currently am now registered for the half because i felt like such a heel and a traitor/letdown to my team. I feel better now that I will once again race with my team...I hope they know I am loyal. BUT....I will still use the excuse that they talked me into it or at least guilted me into it. I figure the "test of loyalty"story should be a good one. So here I am again stressing about the race. This time I don't have the time set aside for training and I am currently in Cleveland away from all my normal training environments. So I am fat and out of shape and not getting any closer to 70.3 shape. Man I am back to being lame-excuses, excuses, excuses.