Loving the Training

I can't tell you how great I feel. I am, of course, exhausted but I am getting my confidence back and i even feel a little bit of competativeness (I can't spell it because it has been so long since I felt it) back. I actually want to do well in the 1/2 ironman not just finish. That is really scary for me yet invigurating (antoher word I can't spell). I got hit really hard with baby number 2 with post partum depression. I didn't realize it till about 6 months after he was born. I had plumeted and everyone but me knew it. Well I kept racing but I was just racing to finish and i never kept to any training schedule. But now I feel I am coming back!!! I have drive, I have confidence, I want to do the scheduled workout, i want to be a better person, and i am loving the time I am spending more with my kids. and for those that got the "See Mommy Run" gear, Dont you think It ROCKS!!!! I have been wearing it to the gym, on the nights when it is freezing and a long run is the last thing I want to do. Putting on my See mommy Run long sleeve hoodie gets me all motivated. I am showing my kids decipline and committment and passion about something. I no longer feel guilty or depressed about leaving them because when I come back wet and sweaty from running in the snow or rain they are happy to see me. and we spend the next hour or so playing and getting ready for bed stress-free and tired. My oldest is even starting to stretch with me. It is too cute. The little things that drove me nuts while I was in my fog of depression are now the things that I look forward to the most...the kids climbing on me while I stretch, the kids asking for my help, them wanting me to put them to bed. Lofe is so good! And I am totally loving the training!