What Next???

2 Weeks to go till the 2nd craziest (actually this may be the craziest since I already know the type of pain I will be in) thing I have ever done in my life is OVER!!! Man I can't wait. As I was telling my teammates today (on our 5mile run-1st training we all did together for either of our races) I b-tch, whine and moan about my races. Stress myself out to the point where everything in my life seems to be falling apart and going wrong, and then I turn around after the race is over and wonder what race I will do next. Am I a Sadomasachist? Or am I a Triathlete? Isn't this why we do race? To get our life back together? To give ourselves goals and a set schedule to keep our lives active and fit? I don't know if that is why, but I know it is part of why I race. The other part is because without that goal I have no direction. The other reasons I race is because I want my kids to know a healthy life style and a strong, confident woman as their mother. And though my confidence waivers as I near my races I try not to let them know. I keep working out as planned and just keep moving. I hope they know someday the thrill of training for something (anything-football, soccer, lacross, swimming) and the satisfaction when finishing. They don't have to place, just finish or have done the best they ever could. I want them to see me doing these things. Show them how strong women are. By the way, they are 2 and 4 so they have no clue but someday. And maybe someday my teammates and I will meet to do an Ironman!!! HEHEHE!!